Sunday, July 26, 2015

The waiting game

I hate waiting. And when people are not able to give me necessary information.
I still have to retake the exam I wrote about in the last post.
And nobody is able to tell me when the exam takes place. Normally there are certain weeks after the lectures of one semester end and before the lectueres of the new semester begin in which the exams take place.
And normally one is able to see the dates and rooms of the exams one signed up for in ones personal account at the schools online platform.
But I signed up for that exam on a list in the professor's office because this exam did not show up as available option in my online account which sometimes happens with elective courses.
But now I can't look up dates or times on the platform.
So I keep emailing the professor to ask about the date and he mails me back telling me that he doesn't know the date either.
Last week I sent a mail to the person that puts the plan together and sets the dates but he never bothered with an answer and apparently doesn't believe in answering the phone either.
And trust me, I tried.
So all I can do is wait now and send an email to the professor every now and then, asking if he knows something and hoping that I don't have annoyed the hell out of him by the time the exam finally takes place.

I am afraid of missing the exam though and that makes the wait so much harder.

Monday, March 30, 2015

more than halfway through

I'll save us all the "Oh my, it's been a while" and "I promise I'll do better" stuff because as we all should know by now, this probably most likely will not happen.
I was superbusy, as usual.
Since my last post I had three exams on which I did pretty well and one I flunked on purpose.
I felt crappy on that day, and like everything I memorized was gone.
I honestly tried, but in the end I did the math and figured that even if I pass, it would be a really bad mark.
I was pretty sure that I wouldn't pass but to make sure that the professor doesn't want to be nice and just let me through, I crossed out all my answers.
I rather have a "second try' on my grade list with a good mark than a "barely passed" on the first try.
And I know I can do so much better.
So I am not worried about the second try.
The three other exams were oral exams and I did surprisingly well given the fact that I used to hate oral exams.
But by now I am confident enough to know that it can be just like a more or less pleasant talk if you are well prepared.
And I was really well prepared for them.
I kind of lived at the library.
Had the same table each day and didn't go home before 9 pm. Many days I even was there til 10.
Now I have one oral exam left in the end of April and the written one I have to retake.
I don't have a date for that yet, though.
Besides these two exams I have to do a presentation and a paper. I plan to hand in the paper before I go home for Easter, then come back and study for the exam and after that do the presentation which is linked to my Master thesis with which I'll start after the exam in April. It's not the final presentation though. This will come in the end,after I handed in the thesis.
This will be my last semester.
It's kind of amazing that the end is in sight.
And scary at the same time because I am 90% sure that I will not go for a PhD. I am pretty old and need to start making money or I don't need to start at all.
That means that I have to find a job in my preferred area of Germany.
I want to go back North to be closer to family and friends and I already keep an eye at job listings.
It's a bit too early though, because they are looking for people either starting immediately or at some point in summer.
Well, this is just a little update.
I didn't do much besides studying as you can see.

Thank you for the comments on my last post. :)
As of now I think I'll stick to blogging.

Have a nice Monday everyone! (or week, or month, or spring...who knows whenever I feel like posting again)


Thursday, January 1, 2015

reality check

As 2014 came to an end I was thinking a lot about this "New year, new you, first page in a blank books" stuff.
I really didn't like my 2014, and had only a few times where I was really happy, and I kept looking forward to 2015 because some major changes are going to happen in the second half of 2015.
However, looking at all the bad things that happened to other good people this past year, I really got off easy.

I am alive and fairly healthy, same for my family. I did not loose a loved one this past year.
Friends came and went but I have a few that I can always count on, no matter how far apart we are.
I don't have much money, and outings and fun times are rare. But I don't have to go hungry or cold.
I have a roof over my head and food on the table.
I didn't have to flee my homecountry in fear for my life and the lives of my loved ones.

Sometimes a reality check is really eye opening.

The things I am unhappy about would make someone else really happy to have.
So I decided to be grateful for what I have, suck it up and  keep on going and hopefully by the end of 2015 I can change most of the things that bother me right now.

Here is to a Happy 2015 for whoever reads this! ;)